Going Under...

 

 I'd like to say that it was a quick thing, this going under, but, truthfully it was seven years in the making. Seven long excruciating years filled with incredible pain and suffering. The kind of pain that you never expect to see and just have to watch someone close to you endure, day after day, week after week and year after year. The kind of pain that you experience yourself on this roller coaster ride through hell.

No joke, it's not for the weak of heart.

I can say that I am on the other side of it now. Well, it's a different kind of pain now. Like when you have a horrible cut, and it bleeds for quite some time and after it heals all you are left with is a scar.

I am scarred from the suffering. I don't think that is something that is going to change, but, I can change the way I look at things and that makes all of the difference between drowning and rising from the ashes.